Sperm donor

You sir!

I didn’t ask to be brought in this world. What hurts the most is how you were a constant for 5 years before you got ghost. Maybe the pressure was too much having two little girls. Having to pretend one was yours when you weren’t sure while you loved the other nonetheless.

You sir!

I never imagined you’d be the first man to put his hands on me. Regardless if it was drunken or sober you were supposed to be my protector and instead you hurt me just like they did.

You sir!

I never thought that you’d be the man to laugh in my face when you learned of my pain. I never knew that being molested young, or being a young black lesbian was a laughing matter. I guess you did.

You sir!

I never asked you for anything in my entire life. I couldn’t even ask you to be there for me. But it was you who made the choice to walk out years ago.

You sir!

You never gave me the chance to be the daughter you wanted. You treated me like I was a step child that you really didn’t want.

You sir!

Have no idea how much damage you caused me. You have no idea what I still face on a daily basis. You were supposed to be my first everything good a daughter should have and yet you were just the first to cause me pain

You sir!

Not one time did you ever apologize or even acknowledge the damage you’d done. Only thing you managed to show over the years was how much you didn’t care.

So excuse me if I don’t call or come see you. Excuse me if I don’t send pictures or make small talk. Excuse me for being just as distant as you have been my whole life. Excuse me for pulling a you on you.

I wish that I could say that I’m not hurt. I wish that I could say that I haven’t been angry. I wish that I could say that I’m understanding and forgiving. It took me a long time to come to terms with your absence the only thing good I got from it was college financial aid. So thank you sperm donor for allowing me to succeed in your absence.